Monday, July 27, 2009

awesome!

So it's been a little while since my last update. Actually I wanted to update, but there was something weird about this website, the posting box was all missing. Anyhow, here I am. Got a lot to say, got a lot going on in my heart. Don't want this to be long, want this to be a quality entry.

2/3 exams done. One more to go, 1st one was a breeze, 2nd one was a total shock, I expected it to be smooth-sailing, and I guess the cockiness in me, made me lazy to be more prepared, hence the not so well, in fact pretty badly written exam paper. I was rushed and was going way off topic. Oh well, I'm confident I'll pass, but maybe not to the max of what I could have reached.

I got back my 2nd assignment for my ICHRM module. A bit dissapointed, not so much at the result, but at the fact that I could've done so much better. I've been extremely lazy and slacking in putting effort into my assignment, so I guess that grade received is justified.

On the bright side, got a very nice surprising High Distinction for my SM assignment 2. Pretty sweet!

Ok, short but sweet. Sunday was AWESOME! A visiting pastor from Seattle, came and WOW. I am totally energized and awoken. You know, deep inside I've already accepted God. I have, I may not be such an outspoken and clappy sort of worshiper, but I love and have accepted him quite a bit ago. This pastor, WOW. You know there's a reason why I still feel and behave like a teenager, I find a youth pastor's message so much more appealing and awakening and just SO MUCH more relatable and acceptable then what I usually listen to in church. I loved the message, and I've never been so driven and motivated before. I want to be pure again, and I hope when I finish him book, I will feel that purity again.

I am strenghened as a Christian and child of God. I AM truly blessed. And Honestly, I have Pastor Judah Smith to really thank for. He's woken me up, in the simplest but most powerful way. AWESOME!

JUST AWESOME! I love it, I've never felt so full of life loving! =)

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

quickie -
because it's 3: 52am but I want to write something about today just for a records keep.

my job interview
went in my honest opinion. crappy.
not satisfied, not please, and pretty much just dissapointed.
felt extremely nervous, and i hate the fact that i sold myself short. but alas, i am honest and that's that.
so i'm still job searching

work
the flip night thing, started this evening
it was madness, but it was a fun sort of madness if there can be such a thing

im shacked and tired, but i can't sleep and this is irritating me a lot at the moment.

Friday, July 10, 2009

0 / 2,500

The title name represents my current status on my assignment that is due this coming Monday. The Assignment, where I had WEEKS to prepare. Okay, I credit I did my research and reading, but I'd hope by Friday (two days before submittion) I'd have words bloody written by now. I should have been in the editing process by now. But alas, yet AGAIN! Ironic, In all these months, of kicking myself to stop procrastinating, my last official assignment submittion for Uni, and it's still a rushed job. It's just ridiculous.

I got back the results from my first two assignments from both modules. SM = High Distinction. Surprised, in a good way. Which makes me more optimistic now with this module's second assignment submittion. I'm confident for the second assignment in SM, at the very least a C, if not D. An HD would really be the cherry of the cherries on top. ICHRM = Credit. I can't be dissapointed with that, considering how crappishly it was written. Wait I should do a check-back on what I wrote in this blog about that assignment.... I said editing was not done because of lack of time, and it was crappishly written, and unsatisfactory to me. Hmm, interesting. I'm confident I will pass the assignment that's due on Monday, it's just that I want to write a quality paper, I want it to scream "HD". Why can I not find the motivation to write? I have loads of research, facts, figures. INteresting concepts in how I want to write it, but I just can't get myself to sit down, and write this damn thing.

Oh well. It'll get done, last minute as usual, but it'll get done.

Finished my bridging classes. Now awaiting the exam and must write the assignment. Funny how the exam date is before the assignment due date. The class itself is a bloody joke. It's just ridiculous. To spend 1 hour to "teach" us how to write an e-mail. I'm not kidding. I can't blame the lecturer though, she was actually quite easy-going, it's just the subject matter which was just so dry. And pretty much common sense, It feels a bit stupid, to be forking out $500 bucks, to pretty much learn nothing, but just sit for the exam and do the "assignment" just to tell the Uni, that I have sufficient credits to graduate. Really, I've goten nothing out of this. Oh well, get this thing over and done with.

I should really stop and reflect about my whole journey with Unisa. I hate the fact that it's very unorthodox way of studying. And I really wish I could have experience campus life. To me that's like 50% of university. sure there is all the academic aspects part of it, but there's the whole socializing bit, clubs, groups. I missed out on that, and I'm upset. Because I feel a big chunk of my social life is unexhistant. I feel I missed out a lot, going to lectures, study groups (Real study groups), dorm life, tutorials, skipping class. Attending huge lecture halls. Yeah, I will totally never experience that. Sigh. No point being bitter, it's just the way it is. I really hope that I will be able to fly down to Adelaide in April '10 for the graduation ceremony. I'm quite fearful actually. Because I'll be in an area, though I call it "my school" I'm a total stranger. The amount of people I won't know, the experience just won't be the same. But either way, I still want that experience. What's the most I want out of all of this? To be standing amongst the graduating class, and tossing our caps. THAT is the one and most satisfying moment that I want to experience. Sure it'll suck not knowing eveyrone around me, but at the end, I'm amongst them. A graduate. Wow. I'm determined to make it down there in April, one way or another. I want that experience, this is one experience which this unorthodox study method cannot take away from me. IT's going to cost $$, but I'll just have to find a way. Just somehow!

I'm trying to organize out of the 12 modules which are my most favourite to least. Generally, without looking into details, nor being lecturer biased, most favourite to most hated Subject wise:

1. International Management Ethics and Values - I got the most out of it, to think about and interest
2. International Comparative Human Resource Management - the subject is just so intriguing
3. Managing Communication in Business - communication and all its complexities
4. Introduction to Management - being boss
5. Finance and Investment - numbers and $$
6. Introduction to E-Business - the power of the internet
7. Strategic Management - top management thinking
8. Marketing, Trade & exchange - used to be my most favourite topic coz advertising was my top ambition, but now the technicalities of it all, killed the subject for me
9. Organizational Behaviour - study people...boring
10. Accounting, Decisions and Accountability - ughhh
11. Management Accounting - ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
12. Financial Accounting - ughhhhhhhh that damn excersize case analysis was the death of me

It is NO SURPRISE that all the accounting modules are rock bottom. Grade wise, my list. From best grades to crappiest.

1. Finance & Investment (HD)
2. International Management Ethics and Values (D)
3. Introduction to E-Business (D)
4. Managing Communication in Business (D)
5. Introduction to Management (C)
6. Organizational Behaviour (C)
7. Marketing, Trade and Exchange (C)
8. Accounting, Decisions and Accountability (C)
9. Financial Accounting (P1)
10. Management Accounting (P2)

I'm not upset I only got one HD, I'm still very much satisfied, overall with all my grades, even with my P2 in MA. I'll take it gladly.

Lastly, my rankings according to lecturers and my four days worth of lectures, not being grade biased!

1. Management accounting - basil tucker, the most in your face but realistic and has the kick and power and influence to motivate others to be ambition driven! loved it.
2. International Management Ethics & Values - chris provis, though slow and quiet, he was very insightful. and i got to give him credit for making such a theoritical based subject a bit alive in class., plus he really motivated me in this. same goes for a marker, malcolm keyte, never has my work been questioned so deeply, and analyzed and insightful. most impactful, definitely.
3. finance and investment - john christie - making such a technical subject so easy to understand and do.
4. managing communication in business - brian crossman, like a father figure really. nice guy, you just can't hate him and he was so genuinely interested in you
5. ADA - john medlin - same as john christie made such a technical subject understandable, and genuinely took the effort in making sure your on track. think the only reason why i scored badly is because assignment 4 was rushed and never read the textbook = p2, and exam = bombed!
6. financial accounting - scott copeland, man i had so much faith in him. he delivered four GREAT das of lectures, I completely understood everything. but after that, zilch, his lack of feedback, actually there none at all, no help at all, no responses at all, made this challenging subject even more impossible. I thank god I passed this course, i really don't know how I did, but I did. Because Assignment 1 = p1, Assignment 2 = F2, exam = out of 7 sections I completed 4. how i still got a P1 at the end, is a mystery, but I know my faith in God helped me out here a lot.
7. introduction to management - luke faulkner, nice guy really. though he was extremely strict in class, and appreciated it. though i scored just average, i still feel he was a very genuine guy. nice, and his feedback was helpful and insightful
8. e-business - Dr. abrah haider? I can't even remember at all how he was, but i remember I had nothing against him, so i'm neutral
9. OB - Gido, just a boring guy, really boring. Only lecturer which I only attended 2.5/4 days of lecturer, because I just couldn't stand sitting there for four hours, it was that draggy.
10. Marketing - ms. viviven chanana takes the cake. I just really didn't like her. from the first moment to the last. her impression showed lack of interest in what she was doing, the lack of professionalism as well. and her constand complaining about the facilities and people around her, was just plain rude. her grading was somewhat unjustified and her feedback didn't adequately support her grading. but whatever. i hate to say it, but she really killed a subject that i was most interested in and most looking forward to learning.

I forgot my two last modules.

ICHRM - nice guy alick kay. genuinely a nice guy. richard branson look-a-like too.
SM - ms. lorraine spiers - also a very nice lady, genuinely nice.

Wow, I only got good things to say.

So that's that. This is my general overview of all my classes. I really must take a day, after my last exam, when I'm really free. To really reflect and appreciate what I've experiences in the past 15 months. I havent done that yet. I haven't learnt to appreciate what I've experience, but I will. I will.

See, now wasn't that easier. I don't know how much I typed in here....let's see 1582 words. In what...20 minutes.
DAMNNNN!!! I should be able to write this 2500 essay.. why!!!!! why WHY WHY is my ass not moving?

I seem to be so easily driven to write words, when it comes to none-academic stuff. Hmmph.

Alright, I'm off. Actually I got much more to write, but it's just ridiculous that I could easily write another hmm 3000'ish words post in less than an hour, but not get my essay moving. So I'll stop it here

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

much overdue 'real' update.

Man, I've really been so lazy to write in this blog.

Who reads this anyhow? YOU....weirdo. Stalking me... Hahahaha.

So what's to say. Work....Studies....Stuff....

Work is alright. In a dillema, because as of August 1, day of my last exam, I am totally free, so what's to do. It just doesn't seem smart to just continue doing part-time, money is crap. That IS a fact. But I endured it because it work worked well with the flexibility I need/needed for my studies. So my initial plan, after school's done was to find another job, for the day. An easy job, you know cashiering? Video stall rental? Yeah that's right, I'm so freaking lazy to get any sort of work experience. Kind of procrastinating that as well. Damn, what a lazy bloody ass'ed unmotivated person I am. Considering I finish in August...But I will only physically get my Degree...papers/transcipts all that official'ness stuff only in April 2010...that is 7-8-9 months from then, I just figure, Take the year do someting easy, and pay off my study payments fees. Seemed like a okay plan. But NOW....offered a new opportunity. Captain? Assistant Manager? No way am I qualified for Manager. It seems totally cool though, but I know I have no experience in that, who the hell am I to say I am. bassically the only main thing holding me back for readily accepting this offer is:

1) I love my current job
2) I love the people (generally) at my job, the atmosphere family friend, sorta cool relaxed atmosphere, very chill
3) I love working with the people around, obviously except for the 1,2 morons who shall remain unnamed
4) I feel so loyal to my company that I just CAN'T quit
5) They've treated me really well, to take the job offer, means to quit within a month, which is so rude.

So how? I really don't know. I wish I had more time, I wish this scenario only popped up after all my assignments/exams are all done, I would feel a bit less stressed and less pressurized. Oh well...no promises to no one yet. It's a wait and see for now.

15 days till I turn 23. I hate that number, 23..... Ugh. 22 is tolerable, because it's just a year above 21, but 23 is just so blugh, 24 is = full-pledged adult. God, I'm such an underachieved 22 year old ever. I still feel 16-17, I find things that 16-17 year olds do more appealing then what people my age are "suppose" to do. Luckily, and I am thankful my few closest friends find that true too.

Hmm...what else to say? My knee...right knee specifically is in pain, I don't know why.

Study wise, I haven't done anything. And I mean anything to do my daily review of topics. Just focused on meeting the assignment deadlines for now. This Sunday is the first day of my bridging class...Business Communication. It seems so vague. Communication...it can mean so many different topics. Oh well, I just hope it's none of that e-mail etiquette, business report writting crap. I just hope it's a fairly simple to do subject to do the assignment and study for the exam. Really is a blessing that I'm doing THIS module now, if I were to be doing the Law module (which thankfully is only in December) now, I think I'd be more stressed, because there is a LOT of reading to be done is such a small time frame. So at least my core UNISA modules won't be distracting me of studying.

Money $$ - After August I am determined to save up. I've been spending a lot, but I tel myself to enjoy it for now, because my friends are in Singapore, so just enjoy these months, come August when they all abandon me, yet again. Time to save up. Think I'm going to use this blog as well, to keep track of expenses, because nowadays I really don't understand why I barely have anything left at the end of the month.

My July salary is going to be ubber crap. Think I'll be lucky to hit $400 for a whole month. Damn...that's all my basic expenses right there. Laptop....School Payment....Bus Fare.... $100'ish allowance. Bah....Money come, Money go. Oh well.

My rooms are a mess, maybe I'll go clean it up now...or not.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

tuesday

Feeling very tired, hence this will be short.
Was semi-productive today, went to the National library, and only now do I realize how massive this building is, and how great the facilities are and how many resources there are. though it amazed me at the amount of people just abusing the space, free aircon, couches..etc. ungrateful.
no work. today, tomorow and the day after.
plan to go see Transformers on thursday, call it crazy because its opening day, tickets are going to be hot.
i started up on my research which is impressive, considering this assignments is due july 13. woot. i pat myself on my back for really getting a headstart. the other project is idle, but i will somehow get to it, to meet my groups set deadline, which is next monday. sigh. this assignment has so much potential to be interesting and capturing, but seems like just another deadline for everyone else, that the interest is just not there, the goal only to get text on paper. pity.
a bit annoyed by the lack of communication between my group, as usual. damn frustrating.
so let's see.

june 29-july 5:

mon - group deadline
tue - work
wed - work
thur - work
fri - work
sat - work
sun - bridging class

july 6 - july 12

mon - assignment deadline // bridging class
tue - bridging class
wed - bridging class
thur - work
fri - work
sat - work
sun - bridging assignment due

july 13 - july 19

mon - service excellence workshop // assignment due
tue - work
wed - work
thur - work // study // BDAY
fri - study
sat - study
sun - bridging EXAM

july 20 - july 26

mon - work/study
tue - work/study
wed - work/study
thur - work/study
fri - work/study
sat - EXAM
sun - work

july 27 - august 1

mon - work/study
tue - work/study
wed - work/study
thur - work/study
fri - work/study
sat - LAST EXAM FOR UNISA CLASSES WOOT WOOT!!!!

wow, i actually had quite a lot to write, but i'm just really too tired to do so, will get to it.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

3:06am - draft finished.

but major editing needed, which i will do in a few hours. now, time to sleep.

gosh, i hate this assignment. why the subjects too easy, and its too crappishly written.

damn! im not satisfied AT ALL. i hate the current draft, super crappy. so alas, tomorow no choice, i only got a few hours before the deadline, so die die must get it done toms

ridiculous

its 11:58 and i have just one paragraph written, my introduction
its bloody freaking unacceptable.
i will not allow myself to go to sleep until i have 1000 words done.
now to get off this thing...blog. goodness, all this procrastinating is really really ridiculous